Amy Carlson: Saturn in Leo Has Won

Love Has Won cult leader Amy Carlson was recently found entombed in the cult’s compound. Avid readers know I can’t pass by a cult story, as fascinating as they always are. Avid readers also know that Ohio Astrology acknowledges all cultures as cults, just larger, more dominant ones.

According to this BBC article, the cult has been accused of “brainwashing people and stealing their money.” Welcome to the world, where everyone is trying to sell you something. Humans need physical essentials – food, water and shelter. And modern society creates its own needs – transportation, banking, etc. But so much of what we see today is generally marketing. Everyone wants to create a need in you (real or fake) to then solve.

In the realm of religious belief, much is offered that does not need to be delivered on your back porch like an Amazon package. Much is acquired in life by some with these after-life promises to others. It’s easier in some ways – nothing to deliver in the here-and-now; and more difficult in other ways – you need exert a lot of effort to maintain continual lack and promise. That is why, I always reason, cults go to extremes because day-to-day life can lose luster.

So cults are just small, extreme and noticeable traits that can be found quite prevalently the in everyday life of the culture in which it was established.

Spock voice: But fascinating nonetheless.

Amy Carlson

According to this Wikipedia site, Love Has Won leader Amy Carlson was born November 30, 1975. Sun is in Sagittarius, which is definitely a sign that would go on a spiritual quest. The desire for meaning and to help others is also strong.

Without time of birth we don’t know the rising sign. By planet placement, Carlson lacks the earth element or grounding and care of practical matters. So definitely a dreamer.

Uranus and moon are conjunct in Scorpio for both intense and erratic emotions and constantly-changing obsessions. The erratic emotional states are almost like a separate personality in a horoscope that is otherwise social and nicely connected.

The sun/Mercury/Neptune in Sagittarius is that explorer, visionary. Trine to Jupiter and Saturn could bring both leadership and responsibility. For all of the wackiness we see from the outside in a cult, Carlson most likely took her leadership very, very seriously.

Not knowing how she died (yet), it’s interesting to speculate. There are no harsh transits of Pluto, Saturn and Mars which can indicate cruelty and/or violence. My guess is transiting Uranus in Taurus – an earth sign which she lacks – opposite the natal moon/Uranus conjunction in Scorpio brought on a physical illness that created emotional resistance. Scorpio rules the genitals so possibly she passed away from a female illness such as uterine cancer. Or possibly in square to natal Saturn in Leo, heart issues.

The transit is out of orb, meaning it would have been activated a year or two ago. Possibly that is when the illness began and now is the quiet ending.

In times of pandemic and fear, it’s difficult to ask the question “Is it okay to die?” or “Is there an okay way to die?”

Carlson’s horoscope and transits suggest an emotionally painful end, but not necessarily a physical one. And I wonder if in some way she was okay with it, the other parts of her personality needing a break from the heaviness of her moon/Uranus.

Hopefully prior to passing on, Carlson did find the love she was seeking. Natal Saturn in Leo, which rules the heart, is a placement indicating lack of recognition, need to be seen as special by those around you and a difficulty finding joy in everyday life. Hopefully before she passed she found the love and recognition she needed.

Cult blogs:

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Jupiter in Pisces – A Wider Ocean

OMG! Jupiter is moving into Pisces tomorrow and there’s no blog! It’s late. What will people do without it?

Those are Virgo thoughts, the opposite of Pisces. Jupiter the planet of expansion, generosity and benevolence is moving into the sign of Pisces which is an emotional and empathetic water sign. Pisces is ruled by Neptune which is currently transiting its own sign.

Jupiter and Neptune have some things in common – a generosity, desire to help others, vision, philosophy and wisdom. These two planets also share some bad habits of indulgence and excess. Jupiter tends to run away to less restrictive pastures and Neptune “escapes” in any way escape from the human body exists – drugs, alcohol, fantasy, and media.

Jupiter in Pisces is very happy floating in the unstructured waters of the ocean. You don’t have to plan, plan, plan with this transit. You can float, float, float. Or drift, drift, drift. It feels so nice – why don’t we do it more?

Jupiter will only dip its toe into Pisces for a little over two months then return to Aquarius for more social distancing I’m sure until the Powers-That-Be realize that Digital Happy Hour without surreptitious touching, cheap drinks and slurred, drunken gossip isn’t really “happy.”

In fact, Pisces is the next set of hit-and-run transits: Neptune already from 2012-2025; then Jupiter from 2021-2022 and then Saturn from 2023-2026.

What does that mean?

It means during the Neptune transit we glamorized all things Pisces; in Jupiter we expand on that. And when Saturn arrives we hit the breaks on Pisces seeing its limits.

What have we glamorized?

Moving image, drugs both legal and illegal, alcohol. Mr. Rogers (double Pisces).

Living a life of isolation has never been more enjoyable with these Neptune distractions. Yet, in addition to Happy Hours not being as happy without human interaction, life without emotional and spiritual connection is a great part of addiction as research is discovering. When your life is meaningful (and safe) there is less desire to escape it. The traditional experimental results of the rat choosing the alcohol over water changes when the rat has company in his cage; the traditional experiment has a lonely rat. Bring his rat family and he’s not a natural alcoholic.

For the next couple years, Jupiter and Neptune will continue the expansion of these indoor highs to keep us from experiencing the depression that would result from decreased social interaction.

And of course there’s always the possibility of a transit’s highest order – Jupiter in Pisces is assisting Neptune in Pisces with a harmonious, spiritually-connected life with our fellow men. Often sharing a difficult life experience can make people closer. The news doesn’t support this – it supports the opposite – but Jupiter in Pisces is eternal hope.

And I know from personal experience that people can get along, share a connection even with different mind beliefs. Every time I attend a silent retreat I see that humans can cooperate. And I have something else to share about it: when you do this, you start to love everyone. That’s Jupiter in Pisces too.

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Wagner Family Astrology: Jake Wagner’s Saturn Return

Saturn often carries a bad reputation for astrologers because in short it’s not fun. Yet, without Saturn our impermanent lives don’t feel permanent. While we might believe ourselves to be light, airy and spiritually above life on earth, we generally seek permanence which is why we buy houses, get married, have children. If you don’t like a lover cheating on you, you like Saturn. If you want your furniture delivered after you paid for it, you like Saturn. If you want your company to employ you for as long as you need to work there, you like Saturn.

All planets have cycles and for those planets that have cycles within a human lifetime, the completion of the cycle is called “a return.” For Saturn, that “return” happens at age 29, an age in modern life associated with settling down, getting married, having kids, finding that “career” that you will have until your retire. In medieval times, age 29 might have been close the end of a human life.

Saturn is time, limit, boundary, responsibility. Saturn doesn’t kill you; time does.

Last week the youngest of the four Wagner family members on trial for the brutal slaying of eight Rhoden family members in Pike County, Ohio pleaded guilty to all charges. As I watch a lot of Dateline, I wasn’t expecting the guilty plea. Normally having the right to legal counsel seems to be the right (for some) to get away with crime.

Edward “Jake” Wagner appears to have a conscience and according to the news stories, has admitted to five of the eight murders. He’s also offered to give evidence against his mother (Angela), brother (George IV) and father (George III) who were also involved in planning and carrying out the homicides.

Saturn Return

The guilty plea occurred on April 22, 2021 when Jake’s Saturn was almost exactly in return at 12 degrees of Aquarius. Saturn’s current transiting of Aquarius has brought us social distancing. For Jake, it will be a continued lifetime of social distance.

While a guilty plea does not bring back the dead, it does take some sense of responsibility to accept what one has done and to accept dying behind bars at the young age of 29.

Jake and family have a great deal of air in their horoscopes; as blogged yesterday, air more than the other elements has the ability to dissociate. For Jake, with Gemini moon, he might have had the clear sense of feeling like two people. At the time of the slayings, Saturn was transiting Sagittarius opposite this moon; for Jake, this meant the authority was “out there” trying to control him.

Jake has sun conjunct Pluto in Scorpio (the sign it rules). Jake is the controller, not the controlled. The mother of his child was underage during their union which makes him a pedophile as well as a murderer; clearly the girl had issues of her own and was taken advantage of by this older man.

Having studied astrology since childhood, I remember some of the old fashioned descriptions of signs. For Scorpio, it was biting off its own tail rather than acquiescing. That image is appropriate here.

And at the time of the murders in 2016, Pluto was transiting Jake’s Uranus/Neptune conjunction adding more energy to the internal “seek and destroy” message Jake was following. Mars in Cancer also adds to an emotional nature. The air in Jake’s chart could have told him to detach, but probably youth and the preponderance of Pluto/Scorpio overrode that message.

Jake has chosen responsibility and the harsh reality of it. He has embraced Saturn now. It’s a very sad way to learn it.

The Other Wagners

The other son – George IV – also has Saturn in Aquarius. His return occurred in March of 2020 but he appears not to have grasped at responsibility as did his brother.

With Jupiter and moon in Virgo, George IV is “the nervous one.” Sun and Mercury in Libra add to the thinking nature. Both signs are strong in ideals and relationship, but neither is strong in leadership. His mother’s Mars/Pluto conjunction is on his moon indicating that he was constantly trying to please her. She was also constantly nagging and criticizing him. He was never perfect enough.

My guess is George IV followed along with plan and will passively await his fate. And he will probably continue to defend his mother and maybe even sacrifice himself for her.

Angela (mother) and George III (father) are the topic of this blog. Looking at the records, the Georges are named George Washington Wagner. This is a very American story, an 18th century story when you could have shot your enemies and hidden in Alaska as the Wagners tried to do. Today’s world of surveillance means there’s no exile available.

George III and Angela both have a bit of Taurus in the chart. Dad has Venus, Mercury and Saturn in Taurus. With Uranus currently transiting Taurus, I suspect dad is having body issues, possibly including withdrawal from Taurus pleasures. Combined with moon in Libra, he’s probably diabetic. The next five years of Uranus transiting Taurus will be tough. But when Uranus moves into Gemini, physical issues may move from pancreatic to lung.

If mom criticized George IV, she did the opposite with Jake. Her Venus/Neptune conjunct in Scorpio suggests that Jake was the favorite and as can happen with mothers, this son may have become an object of romantic-type affection. Her own Saturn in Taurus suggests lack of physical affection and she may have focused that lack toward this young son.

More to come

It will be interesting to see what the other Wagners do now that the youngest has admitted guilt and paid the price for his actions. It may take the other three a little longer to embrace Saturn.

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Saturn in Aquarius: Idealism, Detachment, Dissociation and Rationalization

When you read about the sun sign Aquarius, you’ll often hear about its “detachment.” With Saturn transiting this sign and bringing us “social distancing,” it’s a good time to think about what this means.

The forced “meditation retreat” of 2020 allowed a lot of observation of self and others. For me personally, I came to understand why the Western “mind” (and guns and germs) took over the world. Detachment is part of it.

2020 also helped me understand some nuances of meditation that I didn’t fully understand. Meditation tries to bring you to the present, to remain there during all activities. How does that align with the addict who gives up the future self for a constant present stimulation?

As a meditator, you are trying to observe, to detach from reaction. How does that differ from dissociation, where you remove “self” from unpleasant situations?

Aquarius Idealism

All elements contain three signs; for air those are: Gemini the mutable or flexible one; Libra the cardinal or initiating one; and Aquarius the fixed or steady one.

Air is about idea, socialization, communication, interaction, mental stimulation, pure intelligence. Fixed signs are focused and steady, sometimes obsessed. For Aquarius, it’s fixed focus on ideas and specifically futuristic ones or “how things should be.” How things “should” be comes in two forms: judgment or idealism.

Aquarius takes on the idealistic lens (Capricorn, the earth sign preceding it which is ruled by Saturn tends to take the judgmental route). Saturn, the great taskmaster, is the planet that rules time, limits, rules, law and order. Saturn is judgment and Aquarius is idealism so we have lots of people judging you right now for social behavior that deviates from an ideal, in this case a hygienic ideal.

By the end of Saturn’s transit of Aquarius in spring of 2023, I would expect more idealistic groupings of individuals with equally fervent demands and rules of entry. Aquarius rules brotherhoods and non-family unions which can make them more egalitarian. But sometimes it also brings in the Capricorn/Saturn elements of hierarchy and exclusion.

Aquarius Detachment

The detachment that Aquarius is known for can be seen, I believe, in all air signs. It’s more noticeable in Aquarius because of its fixed nature. Sometimes with your air sign friends, you may feel that they are not there, have gone somewhere in their minds.

Air is creating the ideal situation in the mind. Gemini is connecting the dots, thinking of the possibilities, traveling the world. Libra is focused on relationships, how to be popular, reacting to the environment to form its sense of self. Aquarius is innovating, finding ways to live the idealistic life, separating from an emotional and needy humanity for a breath of freedom.

The detachment of air is what allows it to see the possibilities of life. In this way, there can be opportunism of both the positive and negative kind. Air can see the gaps in others’ thinking and fill those gaps with life activity or consumer products. Air is faster than earth or water so can take advantage of these slower elements and those that live under their influence. Fire is fast but needs air to move. Many an idea is started by air and moved by fire.

The United States has the moon in Aquarius. The moon is the reactive nature; in a nation’s horoscope, the “people.” The people of the United States are idealistic, we have a constitution that is very Aquarius in nature – it honors the individual.

That the United States constitution honored the individual yet some of those that wrote it held men and women in bondage is another quality of air – the ability to dissociate. Detachment allows for possibility. When reaction and response is needed, detachment can re-attach. Dissociation, in contrast, can’t or won’t help put out the raging fire.

Aquarius Dissociation and Rationalization

The Western mind can’t be identified as one particular sign, but I do think it is air in quality. The ability to write a document about freedom while holding people in captivity takes both idealism and dissociation from the horrific pain of others. The ability of these same individuals to attend religious services and then return home to torture others is another example; it’s not extreme, it really happens.

As Saturn entered Aquarius in March 2020, my moon-in-Aquarius country fought over and is still fighting over reality. A global pandemic causes much reaction amongst humans as one day we are going to die and threats to our lives remind of us this. Our fears evacuated our bodies like toxins will in a virulent upheaval. When in fear, all idealism is tossed aside.

One of the responses to this situation was to pretend it didn’t exist. While I’ve seen that reaction before in individuals avoiding problems, I hadn’t realized the prevalence of this type of reaction. It explains everything about how we’ve come to be where we are in the Western world.

The Western mind took over because it has strong ideals, many of them very good for all. But the ability to dissociate allows for an opportunism that removes itself from the pain of others and to avoid the ugly by-products of one’s actions. And when the ugly by-products make themselves known, the mind uses its most effective trick – rationalization – to further dissociate. The mind can create a rationalization – a story – for any situation. That’s its role.

The mind is both an asset and liability and the trick of meditation is to attempt to remove the liability portion as our ability to dissociate and rationalize does not merely affect others; it affects our own well being. But keeping the asset portion brings us the life enhancements the Western world today enjoys and enhancements others would like to share in – indoor running water, constant electricity, consistent food supply, etc.

Saturn in Aquarius

Saturn in Aquarius is contracting, as Saturn does, group ideals and experiences. Saturn in Aquarius is challenging ideals against reality – Saturn is time, the “real” world you wake up to each morning.

The world outside the window is the result of shared beliefs and actions mixed with nature’s patterns. Much of what humans complain about, I believe, stems not from divine interventions but human activity and response. Nature isn’t deemed evil – humans are.

When ideals don’t match reality, you have the sound of words and ink scratches on paper. That’s all. Saturn is asking for the ideal to be real.

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Polishing Your Moon

Pulling out the spring jewelry collection, I discovered it was time to polish the silver. “Polish the silver” is something you hear often in British period pieces, done by servants and exclusively with dinnerware. It definitely can be a tedious task, especially with tiny earrings.

“I’m a cheap date,” was my first thought as I pulled out the silver cleaner. Silver is so much cheaper than gold. But silver is my metal in look and feel and I have lots of it due to relatives in Colorado and travels in Mexico. Silver likes me I suppose as much as I like it – it finds me.

In astrology moon is silver. Gold is the sun.

That makes sense both visually and symbolically. The moon looks more like silver, white and changing, as silver does when it tarnishes due to contact with moisture and sulfur in the air. The sun looks more like gold and is always shining and bright, even if we can’t see it behind the clouds. Fly on a commercial jet and you discover it’s always sunny at 30,000 feet.

Moon Polishing

The sun in astrology represents our conscious self, the one we identify with. The “I am” self and “me” of “you did this to me.” It’s the one you dress every morning to look like an executive. It’s the one you take to the party and describe to others “I’m a baseball player.” It’s the one on your resume who worked here, volunteered there, sings in a choir.

The moon in astrology is the reactive self, the one that holds all impressions and can act without the conscious self’s authority or approval. The moon is more evident when one is experiencing stress and forgets to maintain the “resume self.”

Teaching astrology, I ask folks to describe what they do after a stressful day. This is a good way to guess and learn about others’ moon signs.

Because the moon is reactive, it gets “tarnished” in the emotional sense. Like silver, it often needs cleaning. The moon is receptive, a very lovely thing if you are a musician connecting with your band members during a concert. Receptivity to an abusive or disruptive early environment, unfortunately, stays with the moon. The reactions of early childhood are the strongest impressions retained by the moon.

So it’s important to understand your moon and what it “picks up” from daily life and clean it off. The tarnish is not yours.

How does your moon react?

There are four elements – fire, earth, air and water. Moon reactions follow the same energies as sun conscious action. The difference is the trigger from external event; the reaction may be appropriate or a set of responses developed from past events that do not apply.

The moon reactions often have a manipulation to them because the moon “needs.” It’s reactive.

Fire signs (Aries, Leo, Sagittarius) react with passion, energy, anger. Aries fights. Leo looks for recognition. Sagittarius often flees for freedom.

Earth signs (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn) react slowly with practical concerns. Taurus maintains the peace. Virgo rationalizes. Capricorn tries not to “burn bridges.”

Air signs (Gemini, Libra, Aquarius) react with thoughts. Gemini is best at dissociating. Libra seeks partnership. Aquarius develops its own, internal rules.

Water signs (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces) reacts with emotion. Cancer cries and can make you cry too. Scorpio obsesses and broods. Pisces becomes what you want it to be.

Is the moon feminine?

The sun and moon are also related to male (sun) and female (moon). This can seem obvious as women menstruate with the cycles of the moon. And the last two thousand years have been dominated by externally-focused males who established femininity as “emotional.”

I would argue the moon is not feminine. I prefer the Chinese concepts of yin and yang which are internal and external respectively. Female organs are internal and male organs are external. I believe this is the root of gathering, which is at peace with the external world and hunting which uses tools (external senses) and tries to conquer “out there.”

We all have the same horoscope – 10 planets, 12 signs.

Both males and females have a sun and moon with active and reactive principles. Menstruation just like respiration or heart beating is involuntary. It’s the moon.

For me, the historical trait of males viewing women as emotional, which I still hear today in the “crazy ex-wife” stories is the externalizing of the moon. It’s also very clearly evident in psychological political war where a group of people, for example, is enslaved, whipped, raped for hundreds of years and then when freed somehow become the “violent” ones. If you look closely, you will see this pattern repeat over and over.

Males are as “emotional” as females they just don’t have the menstruation to prove it. But they do have other hints of this such as violence or other “external” acts of emotion which are rationalized into “conscious” actions. If war is emotional, consider how that balances the scales.

The Universe is Female

According to a Western view of history, Ancient Egyptian Pharaoh Ahkenaten in 1300s BC established “monotheism” asking his people to worship Aten – the sun – only. Archeological interpretation often stays within the paradigms of one’s own cultural thinking. Ideas of “monotheism” are our own.

I believe Aten was focusing his people toward our true energy source – the sun. Eating food is to eat the sun. The moon does not generate energy, only the sun does.

Associating females with the moon assigns women to an inert body that generates its “light” from the sun. Ahkenaten may have been the first feminist.

There’s only one theory of male dominance that makes sense to me and it’s from Carlos Castaneda. His mentor, Don Juan, explains that the universe is primarily female. The earth is clearly female – it feeds us. We couldn’t live without the sun either.

Male energy, then, is rarer and somehow became privileged.

That makes sense to me. That we look at the earth as an external thing made for our use is imbalance of male and female energy. It’s too focused on yang or external. In a sense, we are raping the earth. But as female energy is the energy of the earth and universe, I expect the earth will eventually win.

As we learned during the pandemic, when humans retreat nature returns. Thoughts of an earth without people does not unsettle me as it does some.

Why should it?

We will all still be in the earth, in the soil. Then we will all be “feminine.”

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Unrequited Love of Authority: Pluto in Capricorn

Astrologers are like economists – we have basic principles that occur in unique combinations over time. We analyze those past patterns to make future predictions. And like economists, we sometimes get it right, sometimes wrong – more often a combination of accurate and inaccurate.

The challenge is vision. Both astrologers and economists deal with the inconsistencies of human behavior. How something “should” occur may not happen that way because you find humans do unusual things like prioritize pleasure over need. The underlying elements of prediction may be accurate, but the manifestation looks different than imagined.

In that way, the year 2020 stood out to astrologers who cared to look in advance at that year. Pluto the planet of destruction and transformation began its transit of Capricorn in 2007. Capricorn is social structure and authority and immediately the global economy collapsed due to “Plutocrats” making money off of numbers and bankers and auditors playing along. This type of high finance is not easily understood by the average person who simply works hard and tries to pay his/her bills.

Having lived through 9/11 in 2001 and the housing crisis in 2007, I’ve learned that humans do not heed warnings and probably never will – maybe that’s why for all of the moral instruction religions provide, it never really stops people from killing each other.

The chaos of 2020 was caused by a pandemic, something that is not easily predicted by astrologers or economists. However, astrological predictions of the 2020 lineup in Capricorn probably had many of its elements – societal control, responsibility, caution, and rules.

Foresight

In 2020, the planets Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn joined Pluto in Capricorn. Mars is where we assert the self and is often associated with aggression and war. Jupiter is where we meet society at school or church and learn to interact with others. Saturn is where we meet authority and personal responsibility and where we learn to be a part of the running of society.

For this astrologer, this 2020 line-up meant a great deal of authoritarianism, which I believe came to pass. While the needs of public health can impinge upon one’s personal freedoms, most countries do not have a clear line of where and when that occurs. We will most likely be discussing this through 2024 when some sort of resolution occurs as Pluto passes into Aquarius.

The digital life arose during Uranus and Neptune’s transits of Capricorn and Aquarius in the mid 1990s through early 2000s. Those born then tend to glamorize (Neptune) technology so its authoritarian implications were not understood. The freedom (Uranus) that technology can provide was exciting but appeared to have lasted only for a Uranus transit through Aquarius (seven years). Quickly the authoritarians discovered the power of daily-life surveillance.

Hindsight

As with most prognostications, it’s easy to look at the present and see evidence of one’s thoughts – that’s the bias of daily life where we see what we expect to see.

The great 2020 hindsight takeaway for me as an astrologer is that there is a great love of authority. Having grown up in the shadow of WWII, I carry the image of the dangerous demagogue. While some of the authoritarian figures that arose and continue to arise with Pluto in Capricorn turn my stomach, I did not understand how appealing to others they would be. What’s more fascinating, even, is that much of this love is unrequited. Many of these authoritarians are quite open and honest about their disdain for others, even those that admire them.

In the 1960s classic I’m Ok – You’re Ok psychiatrist Thomas A. Harris shares that at some point in development, children of all cultures seem to develop a position of I’m not Ok, You’re Ok. This is a state developed in childhood because of the adults around us controlling our world. We retain the emotional responses of childhood in addition to this external parent consciousness. Our “adult” is then contaminated by parent ideas and childhood emotional responses. What we need to develop is the detached adult state which can assimilate the parent and child states and create an “I’m Ok, You’re Ok” state.

“I’m not Ok, You’re Ok,” in the New Age parlance is “giving away your power.”

It’s interesting to read Harris’ description of the reverse of this – the “I’m Ok, You’re Not Ok” person:

The person in the I’m Ok, You’re Not Ok position suffers stroking deprivation. A stroke is only as good as the stroker. And there are no OK people. Therefore there are no OK strokes. Such a person may develop a retinue of “yes men” who praise and stroke him heavily. Yet he knows they are not authentic strokes because he had has set them up himself, in the same way he had to produce his own stroking in the first place. The more they praise him, the more despicable they become, until he finally rejects them all in favor of a new group of yes men.

In recent years, it seems masses of “I’m not Ok, You’re Ok” people elected or found themselves ruled by “I’m Ok, You’re not Ok” leaders. And those leaders will never find the masses ok; they can’t.

2020 Revised

Like a good economist, Ohio Astrology will explain the flaw in 2020 prognostications. In the years leading up to 2020, I imagined an “Authoritarian Armageddon.”  That view externalizes the energy seeing authoritarianism “out there” inflicted upon a helpless humanity.

Today my understanding is deepened and I would say instead that 2020 was a year to understand where and when we give our power to others, specifically authority figures. We collectively create the world and if we don’t like what we see we have to look inside, not outside.

Pluto’s destruction and transformation has occurred externally as well with market collapses and ill people. But the real change that Pluto is forcing is the understanding that giving one’s power to (and blame on) authority is an abdication of personal responsibility.

Personal responsibility means negotiating with a shared world. Cooperation is not relinquishing freedom but assuming adult responsibility for the shared outcomes of social decisions. The United States, which is currently experiencing its Pluto “return” to 27 degrees of Capricorn, appears to be having the most difficulty with this.

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Mike DeWine: The Illness and the Cure

Just prior to the pandemic in November 2019, Ohio’s governor Mike DeWine signed a bill that forced upon Ohio gynecologists a non-existent procedure to re-implant ectopic pregnancies. This made international news due to its irrationality:

A bill to ban abortion introduced in the Ohio state legislature requires doctors to “reimplant an ectopic pregnancy” into a woman’s uterus – a procedure that does not exist in medical science – or face charges of “abortion murder”.

This is the second time practising obstetricians and gynecologists have tried to tell the Ohio legislators that the idea is currently medically impossible.

Just a few months later as Ohio Astrology’s Governor DeWine ordered Ohio locked down due to coronavirus, I was skeptical, as were others. Was this just another religious/political maneuver? Could I trust a man that just signed a bill mandating an unscientific and deadly procedure?

During the 2020 high season of pandemic and other political and social chaos, DeWine clearly supported his unsupportive and narcissistic co-party president (the 45th). And like many an experienced politico, DeWine clearly supported the 45th president until the insurrection on January 6, 2021 when he was able to distance himself a little — enough for political expediency only. In case his party wondered about his loyalty, on February 7 DeWine declared former president Ronald Reagan’s birthday as “Ronald Reagan Day” in Ohio.

After a year of pandemic, it might have been more meaningful to create a day for historical health care crusaders, the many health care workers who guided us through 2020 or scientists who created the new vaccine. Instead, after a year of illness, unprecedented government action and massive unemployment, DeWine chose to honor a man who kicked people off welfare and removed regulations that allowed unprecedented greed and social economic divergence that continues to this day.

And DeWine continues his acceptance of the 45th president’s support.

Who is Mike DeWine? Is he creating a problem or solving a problem?

Capricorn sun and Gemini Moon

DeWine’s sun in Capricorn (cardinal earth sign) is known for ambition. With Mars conjunct sun, there is competitive ambition, even more ambition than normal for this sign. The best of Capricorn was demonstrated by DeWine during the pandemic – calm, authoritative leadership and clearly-defined goals. Capricorn’s primary motivation is “success” and greatest fear “failure” and the subsequent sense of humiliation.

Capricorn is authority and social structure, known for its serious plodding and planning. It’s not the sign known for lively center-of-attention antics at the cocktail party. Capricorn stays sober because after the party there is a checkbook to balance and a future to plan.

The worst of Capricorn was exhibited by the Capricorn poster boy 38th President Richard Nixon: Calculating ambition, self-centeredness bordering on paranoia, mean streak and lack of respect for others.

DeWine, unlike Nixon, has kept any Capricorn nastiness in check. He’s publicly diplomatic and respectful. More than respectful, DeWine has done a fabulous job of playing both sides of a very unusual political situation. For that you can thank his Gemini moon.

Gemini is the mutable air sign and most mentally agile and socially dexterous of all the signs. Ruled by Mercury, Gemini is highly intelligent. Pure Gemini intelligence combined with Capricorn ambitious shrewdness makes for a fine chess player.

Unlike Capricorn, Gemini does like the cocktail party, socializing, meeting new people and sharing ideas. Gemini likes to talk. Depending on time of birth, Uranus may also be conjunct moon suggesting constantly changing moods and general inconsistency. If DeWine has these traits, he does not demonstrate them overtly.

Neither Capricorn sun nor Gemini moon is strong in feeling tone. Earth signs tend to repress feelings and air tends to dissociate and rationalize feelings. So there is a cool detachment here. DeWine’s Jupiter in Scorpio (fixed water) helps a bit with emotional understanding; however, Scorpio is fixed water, obsessive and when hurt seeks revenge. Capricorn is also known for vengeful acts.

If DeWine wonders why more of his state’s population doesn’t get the vaccine, he may want to review his own actions. It takes some emotional awareness to understand the damage done by promoting junk science in November 2019 and then promoting real science in February 2020. In the real world people have internal, conflicting views; but as a leader, it creates mistrust.

While DeWine has done much to curb the spread of illness in Ohio, he’s also done much to increase the spread of mistrust. He’s the cure and the cause of illness. The reason the Consumer Confidence Index is used as a gauge of economic health is that public attitudes have a great affect on the physical reality of the economy. In this way, confidence in public officials would go a long way to increasing public health and willingness to sacrifice individual need for public good.

By promoting and supporting conflicting beliefs, DeWine with Gemini moon is much like the 45th president (who has Gemini sun) but in a much more subtle way. While the 45th president was bold in his conflicting, non-rational, irrelevant and irreverent views, DeWine appears to be a calm, stable authority figure.

DeWine was born in the Pluto in Leo generation (The Me Generation) and has Saturn conjunct Pluto in this sign. As with the Capricorn sun, this is ambition and with Saturn involved suggests that without ambition and “success,” there is a feeling of unworthiness. Possibly that is why DeWine like others of the Pluto-in-Leo generation won’t retire and pass the torch to the younger generations. That we as a nation hang onto them also says we are not yet willing to truly change.

Playing both sides of the fence works well DeWine who has navigated a long list of public offices. For the people of his state and his country, DeWine’s ability and agility is both productive and destructive. Prior to the pandemic, people mistrusted government. Now they mistrust government, science and everything else. That’s dangerous for a nation as there is no shared reality and no way to communicate.

In 2020, DeWine did a remarkable job of navigating a unique public health situation. He’s also done a remarkable job of appeasing the powers of the political party system that runs counter to his own actions. That takes a lot of intelligence, shrewdness and plain skill – a political chess player.

Through this agility DeWine has also contributed to mistrust of government, science and elected officials. This benefits the enemies of our nation in a myriad of ways who show vigor and creativity in exploiting this culture of mistrust. This is true, lasting damage to the spiritual health of this nation. We don’t know how long it takes to recover from this illness and there is no vaccine.

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Anne Applebaum: Fixed Ideas in a Mutable World

Twilight of Democracy: The Seductive Lure of Authoritarianism by Anne Applebaum is one of the many works you can find written since 2016 that analyzes why those in the more free countries on earth are drawn to authoritarian figures. As with many things in earth life, one man’s authoritarian is another’s savior.

And that for me is what underlies all analyses done of this subject – saviors. As earthlings are born, they are generally provided stories of how they and their cultures were created. Most involve a savior in a secular or religious form. Since most saviors are not in sentient form, it’s no surprise to me that we seek a more corporeal form during our time on earth. It’s kind of like preferring currency over bitcoin. Bitcoin may be real, but holding a $50 bill in your hand feels much different.

And like most works on the subject of recent authoritarianism, I enjoy the unique perspective that Applebaum brings. Unlike other works, however, hers focuses on individuals. The running theme, to me, is that her friends were once on the side of freedom but have “changed” and supported authoritarianism.

While I agree with her premise that in changing times people seek simple stories and a nostalgic return to the past (that may or may not have existed), I also see in her narrative a certain aspect of human nature – people seeking identity in the trends that surround them. Philosopher and novelist Ayn Rand is very appealing because she called this out – if a person doesn’t establish his or her own philosophy and value system, he or she will pick up what’s around by default. While values can change during a lifetime, most of us believe in what our cultures taught without a deeper dive into whether we really, truly believe in that cultural interpretation.

While reading Twilight of Democracy I kept feeling that while Applebaum has true, deep concerns about society, she also feels a great deal of sadness in lost friendships.

Anne Applebaum

As expected, Applebaum’s chart has a lot of fixed signs. Astrology has four elements (fire, earth, air and water) and three modes (cardinal, fixed and mutable). The four elements times three modes equal the 12 signs.

Cardinal signs (Aries, Cancer, Libra and Capricorn) initiate action and tend to be bossy. Fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius) are steady and strong and often become leaders. Mutable signs (Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius and Pisces) are flexible and adaptable but not consistent.

An astrological history of United States presidents shows that traditionally we liked fixed signs. Fixed, just as it sounds, can stay the course on whatever motivates it. In earth (Taurus), there is drive to earn and accumulate assets. In fire (Leo), there is fixation on self and expression making this the actor of the zodiac. In water (Scorpio), there is fixation on emotions and intimate relationships. In air (Aquarius), the fixation is on ideas, especially ideas of social order, technology and innovation.

Humans tend to like the consistency of fixed signs – you said you would do this and you did. You showed up. You kept your promise.

Applebaum has five of the ten “planets” in astrology in fixed signs – sun and Mercury in Leo, moon opposite in Aquarius, Jupiter in Taurus and Neptune in Scorpio. The rest of her chart is in mutable signs. So unless she has a cardinal sign rising, that is a missing mode.

Sun opposite moon (when exact is your astronomical full moon) means the active and reactive responses are at odds. Leo is lovers and Aquarius is friends so Applebaum writing about parties and events shows the social side of this aspect. This aspect tends to make friends into lovers then want to return to friendship, which isn’t easy for everyone.

It’s the Aquarius moon, I believe, which is experiencing the disappointment in former friends’ intellectual morphing from proponents of freedom to supporters of polarizing politics. Aquarius is fixed idea so when Applebaum says she believes in something, it’s more firmly established while others may be going with the flow, enjoying the energy of the times or simply having stimulating conversation.

Journalism is astrologically ruled by Mercury (which rules Gemini). By nature, journalism is a short-term seeking of facts. Although we accuse our journalists of fake news, consider if you were, say reporting on the 45th US president, the “fact” might be one day he says “up” and the next day on the same subject he says “down.” The fact is that each statement was made and that they are contradictory.  A “fact” can report someone’s lie.

Gemini and journalism are the messengers. Taking the facts (and non-facts) and making meaning belongs in the realm of the opposite sign – Sagittarius. Gemini is the journalist; Sagittarius the philosopher.

Applebaum has Mars and Venus – the planets of assertiveness and romance/pleasure – in Gemini. She loves the journalist type with agile mind, incessant curiosity and ability to communicate. For her Aquarius moon, Gemini makes a trine and nothing is better than a late-night conversation about a unique subject. The love of foreign and unique people is also a quality of air signs.

Yet air also seeks identity and identity is not solid like body is. And while Applebaum may feel her friends have “changed,” I suspect they feel the same about her with that Mars/Venus aspect. Also, a party is a party. What one says at a party to relate (and seduce) and what one does with her or her vote or money are entirely different motivations.

My own experience of this is that while young we may tend to be more liberal (but not always of course). But as we age and have children (and houses and jobs), we tend to become more conservative because we have people and lifestyles to protect and as we age we naturally become less competitive as energy wanes (but not always of course).

Gemini is the eternal youth and Applebaum has some of that too. Aquarius is idealist and Leo is proud so there is a lot of energy and identity around worldview. With Mars/Venus in Gemini and Uranus/Pluto in Virgo, the intellect is quite strong and detailed. Applebaum may not be seeing past the ideals of her companions and maybe hasn’t understood that some have fixed-sign attachment to ideas and some simply like the outfits (like the revolutionary beret).

Natal Saturn in Pisces indicates that for Applebaum it is difficult to get a true emotional connection to others – it’s just a difficult bridge to cross. Words can convey emotion but are not the emotions themselves.

Transiting Saturn is currently in Aquarius and in 2023 will move into Pisces. In Aquarius, Saturn is conjunct the moon. In Pisces, it will conjunct natal Saturn for the second Saturn return (times of maturity and acceptance of mortality).

These two aspects create additional distance in friendships both intellectual (Aquarius) and emotional (Pisces). Saturn moved into Aquarius just as social distancing began. For Applebaum, the distance occurring now with many friends will mostly likely be permanent. Yet were they ever truly friends?

In April 2023 when Applebaum has her second Saturn return, she will mostly likely understand that those showing up to the barbeque with amusing stories may not be the same ones that show up in hard times with a bowl of soup.

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BTS – Who Goes Solo First?

There’s one psychological growth stage common to all mankind that is rarely acknowledged by the science of psychology. It’s a rite-of-passage, if you will, a boundary that one crosses, sometimes consciously and sometimes unconsciously.

It’s the time when you watch This is Spinal Tap, find it humorous and never look at rock musicians the same way again.

Yes, you may still enjoy all the same music you did while a teenager. But when you cross this line in the sand, you no longer have the fire in the belly that drove you to put, for example, Led Zeppelin posters all over your bedroom wall. You may still think, for example, that Robert Plant is a fine looking man and perfect rock-wailing lead singer. But you also have other thoughts throughout the day. You don’t think of Robert Plant every hour like you used to, for example.

Watching my first BTS video, the South Korean seven-member male musical group, my first thought was, “They’re going to break up.”

I don’t want them to break up. But that’s what came into my head.

Thinking of the bands I used to like, the time I spent looking at their album covers while listening to their records, I know the feeling BTS evokes. Watching them, a little of that feeling returned. But having crossed that invisible line in the sand, I also know that seven young egos can only hold together for so long. Diana Ross & the Supremes were once The Supremes. Gloria Estefan – a Miami Sound Machine member. From The Jackson 5 emerged a megastar Michael Jackson. And the list goes on and on . . .

BTS

Thankfully, BTS has a wonderful fan site (https://bts.fandom.com/wiki/BTS#Members) full of information as well as birth data. For the newly acquainted, BTS is:

BTS (Hangul: 방탄소년단; RR: Bangtan Sonyeondan), also known as the Bangtan Boys, is a seven-member South Korean boy band formed in Seoul in 2013. The name became a backronym for Beyond the Scene in July 2017.

The young men in the group each have a stage-name identity and are also talented dancers, as evidenced from their many videos.

Seven horoscopes with ten planets each in 12 houses is way too much data for a full-length analysis. So we’ll keep it simple. Let’s take a look at sun/moon combinations with some generational placements and then speculate on who may go solo first, a common theme in rock history and the stuff of rock gossip. And we’ll look at some other “most likely tos.”

Most were born from 1992 – 1995, a glorious time of growth in technology and availability of information with Uranus and Neptune transiting Capricorn then Aquarius. This is the generation that is now being transformed by Pluto’s transit of Capricorn (2008-2024) and is being asked by the universe to reinvent our social fabric as Pluto moves into Aquarius in 2024. I personally look forward to it and each BTS video is a talented image of the future.

Most Likely to Leave the Band First

Because I don’t have actual time of birth, the moon can be difficult to place. If Jung Kook has moon in the late degrees of Leo, then he is my first pick to leave first.

Leo moon does not like to be ignored. It’s also not super-enthusiastic about sharing the center stage either. With natal Saturn in Aries, there may also be insecurities about not “standing out.”

Now if Jung Kook has moon in Virgo, then my next pick is j-hope. j-hope’s horoscope stands out because his bandmates have lots of mutable signs (Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius and Pisces) while he has sun in fixed Aquarius and moon in fixed Taurus. Currently Saturn is transiting Aquarius and Uranus transiting moon so this rebellious Aquarius with a need for security finds himself agitated and up for a fight. The fight is to let off the steam of this challenging square. j-hope may seem more serious than the other group members as well which can cause friction.

Most Likely to be Fickle in Love

Hands down this goes to Jimin. With sun in Libra and moon in Gemini, there’s tendency to fall in love often, daily. Light and fun romance is the goal of these two signs, with lots of playful intellectual stimulation. But, wait, there’s also Mars conjunct Pluto in Scorpio. That’s more like Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance so often Jimin takes others into the depths of seriousness then backs off causing confusion and very hurt feelings. There’s a “grass is greener on the other side,” feeling to the sun and moon.

Most Likely to Get Married First

I’ll say Suga because of his sensitive nature coupled with Saturn in Aquarius. He may even get married by spring of 2022 when Saturn returns to the natal position in his horoscope. As a Pisces sun and Virgo moon, he may be feeling lonely. Neptune is transiting Pisces so all Pisces will get a dose of spirituality and probably an overwhelming attraction to another. Plus that Virgo moon worries a lot so he’s probably got a list of things to do before 2022.

Most Likely to Try Weird Diets

RM has most of his chart in earth and water signs – practical and introverted. But then there’s this moon in Sagittarius which likes to take risks and explore. With sun in Virgo and Venus, Jupiter and Pluto in Scorpio, there’s a lot of discipline . . . until there isn’t.

Sagittarius moon likes to indulge so there’s a tendency to be extremely disciplined then suddenly go wild, with lots of eating and drinking. So then there would be the need to discipline again, which would bring the crazy diets.

Most Likely to Start a Business

While being in a musical group is a business, there’s also the business where you put stuff in a building and sell it or manage people’s stuff for them. V’s chart has the characteristics of a traditional business executive. Sun in Capricorn likes power and authority and moon in Aries is competitive and highly charged. Together, there’s more than a little irritability when things don’t go one’s way. But these two cardinal signs together often make things go one’s way.

V’s next move after the group may be as owner of a business. Maybe it’s still in the music industry but with Capricorn / Aries, it can be anything that provides a feeling of success.

Most Likely to Meet the Dalai Lama

Like Jung Kook’s chart, Jin’s moon could be in one of two signs – Pisces or Aries. With sun in Sagittarius, there is definitely a need to wander. If moon is in Pisces, there is a spiritual seeking. In Aries, a more competitive seeking (if they have one, I want one too – but bigger).

Even without moon Jin’s chart gives me the sense he is seeking the larger meaning of life. He asks deep questions and if moon is in Pisces, actually sticks around for the answers. I could see him seeking the company of spiritual beings including the Dalai Lama.

Saturn

Four of the members have Saturn in Pisces; Suga and Jin have Saturn in Aquarius; and Jung Kook has Saturn in Aries. Saturn is currently transiting Aquarius (since late March 2020 the time when much of the world went into lockdown).

Saturn has a 29-year cycle so returns to the place it was when you were born. This Saturn “return” is considered a time when we settle down and take stock of our lives and determine what we want to do with the rest of it. Many marry at this time or settle on a specific career.

Your Saturn sign is where you feel a lack, a place you feel vulnerable. If you believe in karma, it’s a karmic debt.

Jin’s Saturn return is right around the corner – the end of April. With Saturn in Aquarius, there is a feeling of being different than the group. Suga has this placement too but will not have his return until 2022. While Suga may choose to get married at that time, Jin may embark on some new adventure, with a new group of people. He may travel to somewhere completely different from his prior travels.

Saturn in Pisces is a sensitive placement. There’s a feeling of wearing one’s nerves on the outside of the skin and feeling of spiritual barrier with others. j-hope, Jimin, RM and V all have this placement.

For j-hope, it’s tied with communication. There may be a melancholy or poetic aspect to thought and speech. For Jimin, Saturn is square Jupiter in Sagittarius and moon in Gemini. There is a tendency here to avoid sadness, to always look for fun and to discourage others from expressing unpleasant emotions. For RM, Saturn is opposite sun in Virgo and square moon in Sagittarius. RM’s back and forth between discipline and excess may have come from a stern father who wanted all work and no play so RM didn’t learn how to play in balance. For V, his five planets in ambitious Capricorn try to work hard for success so that the Saturn in Pisces feelings of not being enough do not come to light.

The youngest member, Jung Kook has Saturn in Aries, which represents a struggle for identity and dominance. Since your parents often have you when they are around 30, your parents have Saturn opposite yours which is the generational struggle. In this same say, Jung Kook’s Saturn can feel a bit oppressive to V who’s moon is in Aries and possibly Jin who’s moon may be in Aries.

j-hope is an Aquarius sun so the four with Saturn in Aquarius sometimes are oppressive to him (making rules and such) which would spark his rebelliousness (he probably always wants to do things differently). And for Suga with Pisces sun, j-hope, Jimin and RM might sometimes feel like parents to him.

See how it works? The dynamics of groups is quite intricate and this is just a taste. As with any group of people, the dynamics ebb and flow and over time relationships change and evolve. As the members of BTS experience their Saturn returns, they will take stock of their current life status and plan for the future, the future that comes after success.

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A Spy in the House of Astrology: Anais Nin

Have you ever been to a book frenzy? It goes like this:

You’re in a small town in the middle of a pandemic where the local bookstore can no longer survive against the force of gargantuan online retailers. Human connection is discouraged and sensation-oriented activities such as browsing for books, picking them up, sticking your nose inside the seam to savor the scent of paper, determining interest and possibly returning a book to the shelf is definitely a no-no. You might look up from your state of book hypnosis to see a judgmental stare.

This small-town bookstore has no choice but to close its doors so offers all books for $1. People flood into the store, leave all fears of illness and death on the cold, empty street and start a frenzied grabbing. It is a judgment-free zone of pure chaos. You grab any book that is remotely interesting – a topic, an author, a beautiful cover.

During a recent book frenzy, one of my grabs was Anais Nin’s A Spy in the House of Love. Having seen a movie about Nin and her seduction of Henry Miller and wife, I was expecting a shallow play on the senses and planning a quick glance over some pages.

Much to my surprise, I found Nin a very perceptive and fascinating author. As with other female writers, I believe if she had been a male, her writing would have been accorded much more attention with focus on her deep qualities.

A Spy in the House of Astrology

Of course (of course), an astrologer must examine the personality of the object of interest. For this astrologer, all of our ideas, beliefs, creative outlets and expressions are extensions of the personality. The loving person has a loving god; the judgmental person and judgmental god. Test my theory in your life.

Let’s look at Nin’s writing against elements of her horoscope. Today is her birthday (February 21) so it’s a fine day to conjure her spirit. For context, A Spy in the House of Love is based on a fictional Nin called Sabina who is married but carries on a series of affairs. Sabina struggles with her need for security and attachment to her husband against the need for “multiple lives” with lovers of varying characteristic while trailed by a “lie detector.”

Nin’s Horoscope

Nin had Jupiter, sun and Venus in sensitive water-sign Pisces making squares to Neptune and Pluto in Gemini and Uranus in Sagittarius. Those are mutable signs which are adaptable, flexible and often face challenges through avoidance.

Nin had a wide air trine with Mars in Libra, Mercury/Saturn in Aquarius and Neptune/Pluto in Gemini. The chart is almost entirely air and water with moon in earth-sign Capricorn standing out as a stick in the mud in a chart that would otherwise be entirely social. That Capricorn moon appears to be a driver in this novel where the protagonist is trying to live multiple lives while a part of her always returns to the security of her routine and dependable husband who seems to accept her lies at face value.

The image presented at the beginning and end of this novel is Marcel Duchamp’s Nude Descending a Staircase, No. 2:

Eight or ten outlines of the same woman, like many multiple exposures of a woman’s personality, neatly divided into many layers, walking down the stairs in unison. If she went to Alan [her husband] now it would be like detaching one of those cut-outs of a woman, and forcing it to walk separately from the rest, but once detached from the unison, it would reveal that it was a mere outline of a woman, the figure design as the eye could see it, but empty of substance, this substance having evaporated through the spaces between each layer of the personality.

Imaginative and other-worldly Pisces sun combined with structured and responsible Capricorn moon

She understood why it angered her as people spoke of life as One life. She became certain of myriad lives within herself. Her sense of time altered. She felt acutely and with grief, the shortness of life’s physical span. Death was terrifyingly near, and the journey towards it, vertiginous; but only when she considered the lives around her, accepting their time tables, clocks, measurements. Everything they did constricted time. They spoke of one birth, one childhood, one adolescence, one romance, one marriage, one maturity, one aging, one death and then transmitted the monotonous cycle to their children . . .

But no one who listened ever shared her sudden gayety: in their glances she read condemnations. Her laughter seemed a desecration, a mockery of what should be considered tragic. She could see in their eyes the wish that she should fall from the incandescent trapeze on which she walked with the aid of delicate Japanese umbrellas, for no guilty party has a right to such adroitness and to live only by its power to balance over the rigidities of life which dictated a choice, according to its taboos against multiple lives. No one would share with her this irony and playfulness against the rigidities of life itself; no one would applaud when she succeeded by her ingenuity in defeating life’s limitations.

The vulnerability of sensitive Pisces sun combined with moon in Capricorn fear and avoidance of rejection

She was accumulating a supply of treacheries, so that when the shock came, she would be prepared: “I was not taken unaware, the trap was not sprung on my naivete, on my foolish trustingness. I had already betrayed. To be always ahead, a little ahead of the expected betrayals by life. To be there first and therefore prepared. . .

Before he could speak and harm her with words while she lay naked and exposed, while he prepared a judgment, she was preparing her metamorphosis, so that whatever Sabina he struck down she could abandon like a disguise, shedding the self he had seized upon and say: “That was not me.”

No place, no human being could bear to be gazed at with the critical eye of the absolute, as if they were obstacles to the reaching of a place or person of greater value created by the imagination.

Pisces’ mutable water sign qualities of imagination, escapism, longing for other worlds

Her habits like the habits of a spy. How she lay all her clothes on one chair, as if she might be called away suddenly and must not leave any traces of her presence.

The smoke issuing from Aladdin’s lamp was my first smokescreen, and the lies learned from fairytales were my first perjuries. Let us say I had perverted tendencies. I believed everything I read.

She had lost herself somewhere along the frontier between her inventions, her stories, her fantasies and her true self.

Astrological True Self

Much of astrology’s appeal is the validation of one’s true personality. The social structure of any society is Capricorn by definition which is ruled by the planet Saturn. So the Saturn in one’s horoscope or the horoscope of a nation explains how it creates the order and boundaries of its organization.

A sales manager once told me that when you try to control your sales people, you just make them liars. Likewise, our mutable signs need room to have “other lives” whether in social relationships (air-sign Gemini), with animals (earth-sign Virgo), the spiritual quest (fire-sign Sagittarius) or other worlds and emotional states (water-sign Pisces).

Nin is right – “multiple lives” are taboo, which, by extension makes the ideas of reincarnation taboo, something I never considered.

But like Nin there are many people out there with horoscopes full of elements and modes and aspects that need more stimulation than afforded by “one life.”

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